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Some people deserve a song.

Diary of a Man (Who Disappeared) is one of those songs. Those who know who it’s about, know what it’s about and I do not care to reveal all kinds of personal stories. Also, I like the atmosphere of mystery that this song carries and don’t want to break the spell by explaining everything. But rest assured that this song carries a deeper meaning than just two random stories by me and Magical.

Listen to El D’s Diary of a Man (Who Disappeared) here:

http://www.zshare.net/audio/132983404c089f6c/

The theme of this song is the outsider. I have always fancied myself a bit of an outsider, but I function within society (I hope) and am doing reasonably normal things. Diary is about people who are contained within themselves and build their own world. My verse imagines the experiences of someone who hears things other people can’t hear and sees things other people can’t see. He doesn’t think like other people but when he finds a sample that seems like it doesn’t exist on the vinyl he builds a beat around it. He loses himself in the beat and loses all regular concepts of time, space and reality. Doors came off the hinges when I passed them. When it’s finished he, crazily, leaves his house and burns everything. Why? We can’t imagine. But I’m sure he’ll explain to you if you ask him – perhaps he’ll give you a key and a flower.

Ghosts aren’t always invisible. Sometimes people disappear within themselves. In the final hook, I take the concept of a beat and intertwine it with life: heartbeats become kicks and moments are samples to be controlled, re-interpreted and owned. It doesn’t matter how significant it is on a larger scale: all that matters is the fact that you’ve done it and that, in itself, is enough. That’s why the end of my verse is so triumphant: it’s well possible that all is lost in the blaze, but the moment never disappears.

Do you have such moments? Leave a note. And stay tuned for part 5, where I’ll take a close look at Deep Grooves.